Hopeless Romantic. Grounded Realist. Jaded Cynic.
Indignant Sputtering of A Recalcitrant Insomniac

Tuesday, March 9, 2010
words uttered can never find their way back
to the place where they come from
be it a sentimental heart
a logical mind trying to reason
or the deepest pit of your guts, where courage lies
you let them go
regret will only leave you in pieces
but then, you're shattered already
cracks that show but won't break
it will leave your bodies in forms of
explosions that rain pathways
so many delicate, little branches of roads
and you'll always ends up choosing the familiar-looking one
is it because it's the easiest thing to do?

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too little and too much
the milk ends up spilling
the swimming cookie now sodden
the table's stained
the soldiers from the ant's army
have licked the sticky droplets clean
the queen sat weary on her wooden throne
her tiara haphazard, she nibbled on chocolate chips
her sigh fills the room
her only declaration as a witness
she knows not anything much
but she can say this
it was never enough
adequacy is a standard of perfection
not one being can ever attain
to hope is to deny
while reality stared at you
your eyelids crinkled shut
how are you to know
if you choose to be blind
my darling,
we're all mutes
living with darkness
will not bring
the oblivion
you so obviously covets.

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the very breath of pheasants perched there fogged
the lonesome crow cackled but produces no sound
their throats parched and frozen
from icicles that dripped disquiet

the still air stops the hands of father time
from turning
to signal the coming of winter

the trickling stream wept
tiny ruby-red tears
the glitters obscures
the jutting pebbles
that would scrape and wound

howls of herrings
that hover to devour
stinking sorrow-spiced
rotten corrupted scabs
that scatters over scarred ground.

the albatross croaked,
high-pitched shrieks dwarfs
the owl's softly-spoken diatribes
to spread his wings and left his nest
the owl shuddered
but watched his plight
her fathomless eyes
now blank
the surfaces bleaker
than the pond's shine that
reflects everything.

the stench of anguish spoke volumes
but the woods stay silent.

the trees have got nothing more to say
to each other

their roots now furrowed deeper
as if to seek safety
from the misery that colours
the tender sky like aurora borealis.

but snow melts
and shoots will make grass
that covers everything with green.

now to wait.
and wait.

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Friday, March 5, 2010
the brown-eyed girl doesn't know
she never did


the pitch that would sound just right
or the inches that separates instead of bringing closer


the musician's soulful tunes helps her no more than
the photographer's sharp eyes


they blur the lines for her to see
but the pictures are too clouded for her to divine


cassandra, she is not
so seeks futures through portals
whose edges are rusted over and won't budge


she puts all of her strength, 
apply the most pressure she could
but herculean too, she is not
so she abandoned the doors


and turns her body to walk along
the creaky shores 


the sulky waves lapped at the beach
she listens to the immortal hymns


and began to serenade her life
into mists that soon shrouds the oceans


to join others 
to adds her colour


into the brightly swirling cauldron
of life.




  

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Tuesday, March 2, 2010



"The house used to be two separate dwellings. Now, one belongs to Tim and one to Helena.
Each has its own very distinct decor: hers is girly, vintage and chintzy, while his is a gothic melange of 'skeletons and weird things' and floor lights in neon shades. Each partner has their own television, their own Sky Plus and their own kitchen - although Tim's is barely used.
At night they sleep in their respective dwellings. Not only is Tim an insomniac who likes to pace and watch TV, he says that she talks too much and that he needs some peace and quiet away from her. And anyway, counters Helena, he snores.
And yet there is the occasional blurring of boundaries since Helena has a craft room in Tim's half of the house where she likes to print hearts onto fabric and stitch ribbons onto mob caps. 
She has, as followers of her distinctly 'shabby-chic' style will testify, a weakness for fripperies such as broderie anglaise and bobbles.
The two studio houses are joined by a ground level communal room, which is essentially a very grand hallway. Recently, a third home was purchased in the street which is home to the nanny and the couple's two children, Billy Ray, six, and Nell, two."

yes. just yes.

it's a total throwback to victorian era living arrangements. well at least among the wealthy upper class that is. just a modernised version. from what i read, the houses contain two or three separate wings or sections, each one would be the domain of one half, while the other stays clear of designated areas. the rooms for example, men can be found either in the study or libraries, womenfolk, parlours entertaining or saloons to knit or any other activities that women typically did those days. super awesome.
no, seriously, i know it's not quite uncommon for rich couples even now to have separate quarters to themselves, sharing only certain parts of the house, kitchen maybe, (though i think only servants or paid workers can be found there). even the bedroom's optional.
this is merely a developed version from existing and past models. 
damn, just imagined the possibilities. endless.
the decor alone. 
and you can get all messy or tidy as you nature demands without subverting them because you happen to share some tiny apartment or building..
just two words though.
no unnecessary compromises for the sake of uncertain relationships.
no.more.haggling other's spaces.or very real risk of suffocation. and definite claustrophobia.
did i hear a hallelujah there? yup.
it would slow down the natural process of boredom and sense of banality out of over-exposure  that sours down every relationship and spells the end of said relationship, that is certain to be accelerated by a romantic and mostly conventional method of cohabitation.
it's got the best of both worlds.
you can still see and live with your partner, she or he would be just a yell-up-the-stairs away and you can still do all the things together if you both wanted to, just a hop to their part of the place or any mutually shared spaces. but that's what the parks and restaurants are for right? 
spontaneity.
consider that word. 
you can revert to your own space, take a breather, destroy some pieces of furniture that looks curiously like that shitty-banker-that won't-approve-your-application-to-refinance-your-credits's head if you will. working off the edge of frustrations is truly underrated. 
and this without having your well-intentioned-but-with-horrid-timing partner to make it worse by spring-cleaning  your drawers but only ends up bruising your delicate and rare artwork and almost mutilating your favourite book with this tv-time beers. sounds familiar?
interludes and trysts are assured. really.
no obligation whatsoever to have sex just cause you share a bed. 
respect for each other as individuals.
yes, i got the two-hearts-that-beat-as-one but when movies end or your ipod's out of battery, you get back to the real world and realise that most relationships, at least to couples that cohabit lacks this. severely.
this pretty much solves the cossetting part, get your own, customised and separate living spaces yet still get a sense of each other.
now to make others see these points and practice it en masse.
mostly, it gives you your very own sense of place, what and how you want to with those space without interventions. or anyone breathing down your neck all the time in said space. which is bound to happen, inevitable even if you live in together.
privacy. 
my equivalence of freedom of speech to libertarians, net neutrality for geeks and crushed oppositions to mugabe. or a wardrobe filled with nothing but steve madden boots, jimmy choo's, loubutin's heels and alexander mcqueens to a fashionista.
but you can have all that. the wardrobe part at least. the first sentence's a bit trickier. maybe not on mugabe.   
    

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