Hopeless Romantic. Grounded Realist. Jaded Cynic.
Indignant Sputtering of A Recalcitrant Insomniac

succor, please?
Tuesday, September 22, 2009


Peace Of Mind
Mindy Smith

I need peace of mind
and a hopeful heart
to lose this rage
and move out of the dark
I ain't looking for rainbows
or shooting stars
just some peace of mind
and a hopeful heart

I need a peace of mind
and a lullaby
cause theres an angry voice
in my head tonight
tellin' me to do things
that can't be right
I need peace of mind
and a lullaby

and a miracle
for this broken soul
a little miracle
for this broken soul

I need peace of mind
and gentle hand
as I try to change
the way I am
and God forgives me
when I can't
I need peace of mind
and a gentle hand

or a miracle
for this broken soul
a little miracle
for this broken soul

I need peace of mind
and a hopeful heart




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Rest In Peace Mak Long..
Friday, September 18, 2009
this blog shall remain silent to respect the passing of my beloved aunt....

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Should I get excited for raya?
Wednesday, September 16, 2009

scratch that.

i am soo not in the festive mood.

what is there to be excited of?

oh, i'm sure millions of uni students marooned from home out there would've listed down dozens of reasons.

n most will be perfectly logical n acceptable.

they are in the spirits because they can still feel it.

moi, however, doesn't feel even an inkling of that vibrant anticipation of a season of joy, or so they say..

they same faces, foods n most of all, rituals, nothing that i haven't experienced before..
no sense of enthusiasm for any of it all.

sigh..

i might be tempted to feel jumpy n get all anxious to hop on the bus on train, depends to be home, before.

it used to be my sanctuary, a place where i can feel closeted from the vicious outside world n all it represented.

no more.

it's a bleak place for me to be in now.

for me to fake a smile and pretend happiness, would be at the height of hypocrisy..

mockery of all that is symbolised by aidilfitri.

yet, that is where i'm heading..

the prospect of spending a week with my newly awakened eyes n senses with ppl that will undoubtedply grate on my nerves while i'm forced to be pleasant n carry on politely so, sheesh!

bloody hell.

i pray i will not loose it.



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............
Sunday, September 13, 2009



disconnected.

distorted.

warped.

mucked up.

juz plain messed up.

damn.







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yes, you have somethin to say bout that?
Tuesday, September 1, 2009


Happiness in intelligent people is the rarest thing I know.

I love sleep. My life has the tendency to fall apart when I'm awake, you know?
Ernest Hemingway



so what?

The trick to forgetting the big picture is to look at everything close-up.

Give me rampant intellectualism as a coping mechanism.
Chuck Palahniuk


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