Hopeless Romantic. Grounded Realist. Jaded Cynic.
Indignant Sputtering of A Recalcitrant Insomniac

Thursday, January 28, 2010
crippled as a one would get during rainy days
sharp indentures of pain
saber-quick and loch deep

spit it out
for it can't stay inside you
and be still

rapturous
how to?
be, i mean.

but who knows?
whisper it down at my ear
the left one, if you'd please
for the other one is blocked
by what?
don't ask.

and i shall shiver my response
and clear my cavities
although empty my veins are.

ring et tu,
my marrows

so the heavens
and hades
can and would answer

for they both have been silent.
drawn out ones,
silences that stretch
so very far
father than the reaches of rainbows.

the pots of gold
have lost their lustre
their shines muted

but oh, what pity,
what pity.

the cavalries and choir boys
are still on the lookout

don't let them despair.

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Thursday, January 21, 2010
clogged.
i think.
whereupon once the words flow so free
unfettered

are staunched.

haze.
over everything
glinting of obsidians chips of goblin's eyes
overlaid with
smattering points of nebulous clouds.

pinpricks of awareness
rather than vast vast
open field
of galloping snowy unicorns
and golden wings.

och, i call forth thee
why do thy forsake me?

oh how do this forbearance
came to be under my dermis

does it snoop before
springing on with punches?

or breezed over with north-sea brines
to rain sodium on strands of hair?
with the unstoppable force of a gale?

but no more does it matter
than this
than this

will it stay?

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Wednesday, January 20, 2010



Wait.
Don’t go too early.
You’re tired. But everyone’s tired.
But no one is tired enough.
Only wait a while and listen.
Music of hair,
Music of pain,
music of looms weaving all our loves again.
Be there to hear it, it will be the only time,
most of all to hear,
the flute of your whole existence,
rehearsed by the sorrows, play itself into total exhaustion.
Galway Kinnell

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Sunday, January 17, 2010







it damn sure feels like one. like being trapped inside a sea cabin 
and the keys are thrown overboard down, down to the seabed. 
all four walls, no potholes but i can hear the gentle click of them 
as they brushed with the railings. 
claustrophobia.


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Friday, January 15, 2010






"Here’s to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The trouble-makers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They’re not fond of rules, and they have no respect for the status-quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify, or vilify them. But the only thing you can’t do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do."










"I understand, all right. The hopeless dream of being - not seeming, but being. At every waking moment, alert. The gulf between what you are with others and what you are alone. The vertigo and the constant hunger to be exposed, to be seen through, perhaps even wiped out. Every inflection and every gesture a lie, every smile a grimace. Suicide? No, too vulgar. But you can refuse to move, refuse to talk, so that you don’t have to lie. You can shut yourself in. Then you needn’t play any parts or make wrong gestures. Or so you thought. But reality is diabolical. Your hiding place isn’t watertight. Life trickles in from the outside, and you’re forced to react. No one asks if it is true or false, if you’re genuine or just a sham. Such things matter only in the theatre, and hardly there either. I understand why you don’t speak, why you don’t move, why you’ve created a part for yourself out of apathy. I understand. I admire. You should go on with this part until it is played out, until it loses interest for you. Then you can leave it, just as you’ve left your other parts one by one."

— Persona, 1966







DO NOT TRY TO BECOME ANYTHING. DO NOT MAKE YOURSELF INTO ANYTHING. DO NOT BE A MEDITATOR. DO NOT BECOME ENLIGHTENED. WHEN YOU SIT, LET IT BE. WHAT YOU WALK, LET IT BE. GRASP AT NOTHING. RESIST NOTHING.
dominique francon's probable life quote.











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Friday, January 1, 2010



meadows that stays so green at spring
and so bared in autumn
magically white in winter
scorching and gold in the air of summers

perennial.

how do they do that?
to stay the same on the foundation
yet ever-changing on the surface.


what difference does it make really?
what kinds?
of the surcoats of hazel and acorns
or the blankets of snow on the slender branches
of trees?


don't they, even once
feel weary of all the undercurrents,
of shifting shapes of shadows?


and stand their ground
and shouted their demands
and push at intractable walls?


and flop down
and sift like flour
and grate like mozzarella?


to toss the gauntlet
say


'enough!'


doesn't anyone ever muses then
of whether the slideshows of nature
being flagrantly displayed and paraded
before their soon indifferent eyes
would feel of their performance.


but oh, 
those poor meadows,
those poor meadows,
those pitiable meadows.


continue with your acts and scenes
that shall never pauses nor halt
oh no, no.


for you are impressive actors
on the forested stage
and the eyes, belligerent
yes, they are
will be watching the other way


never straight to your eyes
your artic, chilled
encasing a turbulent, melting, whirling
hot caramel core
yeap, right there on your irises and pupils.


so go on
go on


my delectable
my neglected
my pushover
my poor meadows.















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